as written on; Friday, August 24, 2007

i hate maybe!!!!
maybe has ruined my life!!!
i never ever going to use the word "maybe" animore

tears fall from eyes to cheek
all they way
drip from my chin
and land on my hands
the once being loved heart has turn cold
the last drop of tears contained everything that is meant to be forgotten
i have drop that tear
and from then on
i wont allow a single drop of tear appear on my face
not one

everything started from the word maybe
and ended with a NO
i decide to end things beautifully
as beautiful as possible
so long as it is within my control
as long as it is within my limit
i will never allow myself to get hurt ever again
never
if everything is meant to end it the way it is now
i will end it
destroy everthing with my bare hands
i will protect myself
i must never get hurt anymore
i will never allow myself to get hurt over again
such feeling
once is more than enough

i have made the move forward
now im taking a step backwards
i make that step by deleting whatever can be deleted
contact
photo
whatverer
so long as i can handle it well

i face a truth
and im perfectly fine
i have confidence that i can adapt
i have faith and i believed
i need to stay quiet and at peace
i dun need a shoulder this time
cos i wont allow anyone to see me cry
not now, now later, but forever.
tears is the start of everything
it will also be the end of everything!